Friday, September 4, 2009

Good news and bad news.

I'll get right to the good news, since it's quicker: My hip feels fine. No worse for the wear after yesterday's speed work. So, that's good.

And now the bad news.

My speed work sucked. And I have no one to blame but myself. Me. The Happy Runner. The Happy Runner who, yesterday afternoon, would have been more aptly named The Self-Defeating Runner.

The fact is, I ruined my run. All morning I was thinking about my planned speed work. Thinking, "This is going to suck. It's going to be hard. Very hard." Telling myself, "You're going to have a hard time with this one, Felice. It's not going to be easy. You're probably going to quit."

Well, that works. That kind of self-talk just really makes things go well.

Or not.

My run fulfilled my thoughts. It sucked, as I said. I finished my warm-up with some strides and then got down to business. I was supposed to run 6 x 800 @ 3:35 with 400 rest. Well. Hmm . . . my first 800 was a struggle -- complete and utter struggle -- for 3:39. OK, fine. So I struggled with the first one. Not unusual.

But then I couldn't finish the second one. Maybe I ran 400? Maybe 600? Not sure. I was so . . . off.

And then I couldn't finish the third one. I quit after one lap.

I tried to regroup and decided to run two more 400s, at 1:50. Done. No problem. Then I decided to run slow 800s, which I did. I ran 2 x 800 @ 4:00. I finished with 4 x 200 @ :50 and cooled down for 1.5 miles.

And then I wanted to cry. Is that overly dramatic? Really! I was so flippin' disappointed! I mean, I sabotaged my own workout; I have no one to blame but myself. For real. Why did I do that? Why couldn't I push through and finish what I started?

I have no idea.

I guess I can be happy with the fact that the overall distance run was as planned (8 miles), as was the speed part. It just wasn't as fast as planned nor were the repeats as long as planned. The worst part is that my legs, my lungs and -- most important of all -- my brain just didn't have it today. At all. It was, in other words, a speed-work FAIL.

Can I hear an UGH, Internet?!?

Thank you.

Sigh.

All right, now, lest this post become any more whiny and annoying than it already is, I will sign off but not before leaving you with some photos of my toddler, running his little heart out.


I hope everyone has a good weekend!

~ Felice

(PS: If you want some business/personal calling cards, remember to enter my giveaway here.)

19 comments:

Jon (was) in Michigan said...

Ugh. :(

Ok, some runs go like that. It really may not have anything to do with your self-talk. Some days just fall flat.

You're a strong runner, and the running continues. Next week will be better, and this week's speedwork will be just one small run in your running lifetime. :)

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

Sounds like a bad running day, we all have them :) Next time no NEGATIVE SELF-TALk before the run!!

Cute pictures.

DER totally forgot to enter your Giveaway.. Will do that now..

Janice {Run Far} said...

Cute pics, your little guy is adorable.

Marlene said...

Been there!!!

It's too easy to let those thoughts get into our heads. Remember to think positive next time! You'll nail them! You have it in you!

Cute pics... future runner. :)

Have a great weekend!

Chic Runner said...

I hate the runs like that. That sounds weird, but you know what I mean :) Hope things get better and you have a great next run, don't let it get you down. :)

And you have the cutest son ever. :)

Meg Runs said...

The mind is a powerful thing! Keep your chin up, some runs go that way. Your little one is adorable!

joyRuN said...

TOTALLY been there. Good news is that you get completely disgusted with yourself & work extra hard afterwards to redeem the failed run.

The Happy Runner said...

Really hope that's the case, Joy! I was completely disgusted. Need redemption!

X-Country2 said...

Aww, bad running days are the worst. But you did it. You started, you finished, and you'll be better next time. :o)

Tina at Gotta Run Now said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. Those bad runs make the good ones even better.

Diana said...

self fullfilling prophecies are no good! As long as you learn from it though then it wasn't a waste!

J said...

That happens sometimes - but give yourself some rest and try again. You can do those track workouts!

RunnerMom said...

I psych myself out with self-talk like that before 5K's and 10K's. It happens. Good for you for getting the miles in and still accomplishing some speedwork, even if it wasn't exactly as planned.

Love the pics of your son with those little legs flying!

Katie said...

That "self talk" really gets me sometimes, and not just in running either!

Quix said...

I hate when I psych myself out, but it happens sometimes... In fact, I think I'm doing it right now sitting on the couch when I should be working out. Bleh. Getting up now...

Abby said...

I'm glad to hear the hip's feeling better, even if the run was a bit of a bust. I've totally been there. The next one will feel great, I'm sure of it.

Mel-2nd Chances said...

i think the bad runs are thrown in there to make us appreciate the good ones even more. glad the hip is ok!

Heather said...

Cute pictures!

That sounds like my speed workout this week . . . I hate brain malfunctions.

lindsay said...

i've definitely been there too-right down to wanting to cry during/after a run. keep your head up! remind yourself that you can do it and this day was just an off day. next time, you owe yourself "payback"!

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